Get some headphones download some music and enroll in a cheap gym if you can. Not to lift weights and get buff but to use a treadmill and exercise bikes while listening to music. You can get out of the house and at least have a feeling of like you did something.

I suffer from depression as well. Getting a job was one of the best things I ever did. It's a crappy waiter job, but the people I work with are great and they seem to like me a lot too. I still suffer from what you do. Being lazy and generally not doing much, but I'm still in a much better place. Doing something, anything at all, and getting some money out of it is an amazing feeling. Take it day by day too. I'm still fat and lazy, but I'm not jobless anymore. Maybe soon I'll push myself to get better. This isn't a race. You're gonna be okay.

>>17303153
I was recommended to do this & have already started. I run 2-3 miles twice a week through field lands nearby, and attend gym 3 days a week.

I have been at it for a month and already I hate it, I have the build of a little girl & its really fucking scary walking into a gym being surrounded by men who could snap your spine in two if they felt like it. I know the whole point of a gym is a path to not being a skinny dude but I am just filled with fear and adrenaline walking into that place. Dunno how much longer I'll be attending since it'll take two years of this for any real change to happen. I do enjoy the actual routines though.

But I don't feel different. I still feel empty.

>>17303190
I think we're different.

I was a barista for six months. I fucking detested it even though the restaurant was great and the coworkers were kind.

It was the customers who got to me, just the feeling of these people who are smarter and more handsome than you looking at you and judging you.

I got terrible tips and I dunno why, I was really fucking good to the customers. Eventually the owner just got tired of seeing my face or something and kicked me out.

I want a job where I don't have to be with other people. I want to be alone. I've tried to be confident and everyone just spits at me, I'm done.

Dude you've got to find a job that doesn't burn you out every single day, and if what burns you out is talking to people, then find one that devoid that problem!

Finance based, logistic based, maybe IT jobs too

>>17303220

Oh yeah you meet a TON of shitty douches working in customer service. But you said the place you worked at is great and the coworkers were nice so that's something good.

Serving is honestly not for everyone and that's okay. Get a job that's not as social. Tons of people are like that.

I'm gonna play arm chair psychologist for a second and say you suffer from some self-esteem problems. Totally get that man. Can't tell you how many times I tell myself I'm worthless and gross and disgusting. But I'm the one with the problem. I know not everyone is gonna like me, but there are people who will. You said you're coworkers were cool so that's nice.

It's a cliche but it's true when people say confidence isn't never feeling hurt or sadness or whatever, it's knowing that you'll be okay even when you feel that way.