Im at work and im having a breakdown. Its a relatively new job, just moved from intern to full time and recently Ive gone retarded or something. The most basic tasks i should be able to knock out in an hour are taking forever and I'm messing up a lot. It wasnt nearly this difficult while I was interning and the responsibilites are the same. Whats wrong with me? What should I do?
Sounds like you're nervous. It'll stop after a few days. It's actually pretty common when moving to a new position to be very nervous.
>>17279056
The problem is Ive been here for nearly 3 months. This all started last week when i found the other guys in my department whispering about something. I immediately assumed it was about my performance and have since been worried they think Im garbage and that Ill be fired soon
Three Conscious Breaths
by Pema Chödrön
Our habits are strong, so a certain discipline is required to step outside our cocoon and receive the magic of our surroundings. Pause practice– taking three conscious breaths at any moment when we notice that we are stuck– is a simple but powerful practice that each of us can do at any given moment.
Pause practice can transform each day of your life. It creates an open doorway to the sacredness of the place in which you find yourself. The vastness, stillness, and magic of the place will dawn upon you, if you let your mind relax and drop for just a few breaths the story line you are working so hard to maintain. If you pause just long enough, you can reconnect with exactly where you are, with the immediacy of your experience.
When you are waking up in the morning and you aren’t even out of bed yet, even if you are running late, you could just look out and drop the story line and take three conscious breaths. Just be where you are! When you are washing up, or making your coffee or tea, or brushing your teeth, just create a gap in your discursive mind. Take three conscious breaths. Just pause. Let it be a contrast to being all caught up. Let it be like popping a bubble. Let it be just a moment in time, and then go on.
Maybe you are on your way to whatever you need to do for the day. You are in your car, or on the bus, or standing in line. But you can still create that gap by taking three conscious breaths and being right there with the immediacy of your experience, right there with whatever you are seeing, with whatever you are doing, with whatever you are feeling.
>>17279048
Relax and refocus! If the responsibilities are the same, and you were able to do those OK, then only the title has changed--which means that, as before, YOU CAN DO THIS! Breathe. You don't really know what your co-workers were talking about--until you do, don't guess (you're no mind reader) and don't even worry about it! Just try to remind yourself that you were moved to full time for a reason, and that you're capable of doing the job. Just try your best each day without driving yourself crazy :) GL!
Thanks for the kind words everyone. Im feeling better now, slowed it down and immediately saw what I was doing wrong. You're all right, i need to stop doubting myself and just do the best I can.
