My wife and I have been married for 2 years last month. For a while now I have been into the idea of cuckolding. I watched cuckold porn for months and it was (and still is) incredibly arousing to me. I talked to several people online about it as well. I finally worked up the courage to ask my wife to do it before our anniversary. She was reluctant because she thought it would end badly but I kept pushing because I knew that I liked it and eventually she agreed.
We found a few guys online, and after finding the right one we went through with it last week. He was a very attractive guy - 6' tall, muscular, big dick - everything every guy wishes they had. When he came over I opened the door and we talked for a little while and then I introduced my wife. We went to the bedroom and I sat on the couch while he started to kiss her neck and undress her. He pushed her onto the bed, took off her panties and started eating her out. They were both loving it and so was I. Then he took his pants off and got on top of her and after kissing her for a little while he pinned her hands over her head and penetrated her; she moaned deeply. It was at this moment that my stomach dropped; hot to cold in a millisecond. I very quickly realized that when I was watching cuckold porn, I wasn't getting off on being the cuck, I was getting off on being the bull. I felt sick, but I didn't know what to do; they were already fucking. I sat there, saying nothing. Luckily, after a few minutes, he finished. After it was all done, I rushed him out, told her to get cleaned up and I went to get some chinese food. I sat in my car crying for 20 minutes until it was ready and then went home and pretended nothing was wrong.
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For the past week I have been doing my best to clench my teeth and try to forget about it, but I can't. The way she moaned, the way she grabbed him, the way she looked at him. I cannot get it out of my head. Knowing that I actually let another man, let alone a guy who's much more masculine and attractive than myself, fuck my wife makes me sick to my stomach.. I honestly want to kill myself and it seems like the best solution right now. I genuinely can't look at myself in the mirror without feeling disgusted. The worst part is that it's completely my fault. I don't know what to do. I really really need some advice. I've never felt this hopeless before.
>>17261101
You let your memes be your dreams, and now you're living the dream.
How does it feel to take advice from the internet?
That fucking blows, honestly man you might have to get a divorce if you can't get past it. But maybe you can talk your wife into letting you have sex with another woman in front of her to bring some kind of balance to the relationship.
Something like that happened to me a long time ago, I got drunk with my best friend and gf at the time and we ended up trying to have a threesome.I couldn't get hard because I wasn't into it at all and basically got cucked. Luckily I'm much more attractive than my friend and have a much bigger dick so knowing that softened the hurt a bit. After a while though I couldn't stop thinking about it and hated myself and my gf, I ended up cheating on her and deliberately getting caught to try to get some sort of reconciliation. After that we broke up and I haven't spoken to my best friend since then. Still feels bad man. Sorry you're going through that shit.
>>17261099
if you were really the bull you wouldnt be acting like such a cuck over getting cucked.
You need to see a therapist. Its 100% your fault. Did you even ask your wife how she felt? It might not of been all glorious for her either. She just did it to appease you.
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Don't know if I can take this seriously, sounds like bad porno in abbreviated form.
>>17261148
I know she liked it from how she acted during
>>17261099
>>17261099
What advice you need, cuck?
>I honestly want to kill myself
Do it. At least don't fail on that, since you already failed as a man.
>>17261101
>I honestly want to kill myself and it seems like the best solution right now
I agree. Razors are really cheap.
>>17261349
Liking the sex and liking having sex with the person shes doing it with is different.
I like sex, sure, but i can say that id still feel bad afterwards because it wasnt with the person i loved.
>>17261099
What you do is this: You talk with your wife about it, and the two of you agree to never mention it again. And then you get on with life.
>>17261101
you'll get over it. it really isn't a big deal.
Wew lad.
Just wew.
Thank you for making me feel better for myself!
>>17261099
Yes
