Fucking panic attacks, man. When will it end?
>>16471269
Benzos
My friend has turned into a literal zealot.
A few months back he didn't care for church. But now he is obsessed with it. He texts my girlfriend constantly (who is not religious) telling her to go to church with he and his girlfriend. She declined politely every time, and then tonight he came over to our house and lectured us about how we should accept Jesus Christ into our hearts to have eternal salvation.
I am highly offended by this. I believe in god myself, but if my girlfriend doesn't want to it is her choice entirely, and I don't like someone goading her into it. It's wrong. Also, I am pretty sure his girlfriend is fucking other dudes behind his back, but I didn't mention that because he was being such a cunt that I didn't care if he was ruining his life by marrying his cunt gf.
>>16471287
Maybe tell him to fuck off?
>>16471292
I told him to leave at one point, and he refused, and continued with his preaching. My girlfriend left the room at that point because she felt uncomfortable (and she's usually very tolerant, but being told she's going to hell unless she went to church made her feel bad.)
We talked about other things over the next hour, and he eventually left. It was awful to see my best friend who we used to throw back beers with turn into this giant fucking kekold. He doesn't care about anyone but his gf and "God." It sickens me, because in the end when that bitch leaves him and demands alimony, God isn't going to be there for him, but his friends sure will. Maybe he'll realize that then.
I really don't know how to deal with this woman that i work with, She is so openly hostile towards me its insane. For example today as a i walked past her she straight out said "i fucking hate you", it took me by surprise. I'm pretty sure she is just jealous since i have been at this workplace for 10 months and have been made full time and doing a more important job where as she has been there for 3 years and is still a shit kicker. From what other work colleagues have told me, everyday she tells people how much she hates me. What the fuck is up with that?
I really do hate you a lot. Just having you near me breathing pisses me off
I wish they could just cease to exist. All of them.
I knew being alone is boring 15 years ago. But at least until the last few years, the internet always had something to do or see.
Now this life is boring both online and offline.
Fuck.
I'm not going back with you but I still love you, you disgusting empty-minded cocksucker slutwhore
Due to stress, I've recently been diagnosed with gastritis... The pain interferes with my sleep, which is the worst part.
>>16471487
Adding a spoon of olive oil to your breakfast helps with healing and prevention of digestion problems.
>>16471361
Once you're 18+, there's no reason not to move elsewhere and delete your social media. Paying rent with a low income job is the same everywhere.
I'M BATSHIT RETARDED AND INSANE AND I'VE BEEN AFFECTED BY TUMBLR CANCER AND I CAN'T TELL WHETHER AM TRANNY OR NOT ESPECIALLY BECAUSE I LITERALLY CHANGE AND FORCE MYSELF JUST TO MAKE OTHERS LIKE ME EVEN IF I DENY IT AND I CAN'T STOP BEING CRIPPLINGLY MENTALLY ILL AND BITCHY AND HAVE THE BIGGEST FUCKING VICTIM COMPLEX AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT TO DO IN LIFE AND 5 YEARS OF THERAPY HASN'T HELPED ONE BIT
FUCK
>>16471608
Therapy helps more if you block the SJW sites and stop enforcing your internet persona.
I've been suicidal for years and now I can no longer help but resent my family for being the sole reason I drag myself through each day.
I've slowly been cutting contact with them despite their efforts to reach me
Everyone makes shit out to be so dramatic
Why cant everyone just chill out, ya bunch of godamn babies
Go get some sleep, smoke some weed, get some mcdonalds breakfast, go to the gym, read a book or meditate or do whatever you gotta do to chill out and stop making mountains outta molehills
>>16471303
Women are insane. More on this at 11
>>16471655
I can't sleep more than 2/3 hours a night, I can't afford breakfast, can't afford the gym and I do read my book when I get the chance.
Not everyone is in such a good situation as you. You take a lot for granted. Fuck off.
>>16471662
I struggle to find sympathy for you because I've been in my share of shit situations and I got myself out
And I know from first hand experience that wallowing in self-pity chanting "Woe is me" gets you nowhere
I was the only men in my work group... i am a nice guy the type that bring things for everybody...
My manager my supervisor and a coworker started to make my life at work a living hell... complains and fake feedback against my work... i decided to quit ... but now i want to send nasty messages to them ... they have been doing the same shit to almos every man in the company for the las year and these 3 cunts are ugly and no man .
So i want to send incognito messages to these bitches ... but i want to let go too...
now in unemployed and i cant find a fucking job and i feel horrible...
>>16471666
You make far too many assumptions for your own good
>>16471269
Things are looking up for me, romantically (and I'm saying this because I'm close to a very first date, imagine how it was before), and it's scaring me desu.
I was fine before. Change scares me.
>>16471297
Well if he goes to church, he'll have a community there to support him when things go south.
You sound like a really hateful person. I'm glad your friend found God and got the opportunity to dump such a bitter, toxic person like yourself. Praise the Lord!
I can fuck my gf any time and as much as I want but I'm still gonna watch porn sometimes and have a relaxed wank.
I don't bust in 2 mins. Sex takes a lot of energy
You've turned me into a borderline stalker, are you happy now?
>>16471269
Armchair psychologists and projection addicts in these threads sure do not know anything about who or what they're talking about. Reminds me of a guy named blue and his blue cohorts from effiel 65. Yes it was a catchy song but it also covered depression and projection as well. Over all I would recommend this song to armchair psychologists and projection addicts worldwide.
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=68ugkg9RePc
"Psychological projection, also known as blame shifting, is a theory in psychology in which humans defend themselves against their own unpleasant impulses by denying their existence while attributing them to others. For example, a person who is rude may constantly accuse other people of being rude."
>>16471269
A+C+N +$ -$ xO =0
"Your life is the fruit of your own doing. You have no one to blame but yourself."
Since my girlfriend left me I've been at a complete loss and feel like I can't accept she's gone. I'm pretty much addicted to the feeling of her being with me and can't let that go. I have to fucking force myself not to text her every night to try and win her back. I have to turn my phone off if I ever drink alcohol. When I see her in public my heart rate goes crazy and I feel like crying.
This hasn't happened to me before and I can't get past it.
Everyday I'm so thankful I'm a straight woman and don't have to look to women for sex, because the older I get the more I realise GIRLS ARE FUCKING CRAZY.
Men, you have my sympathy.
>>16471269
>be me
>18
>extremely motivated by the gf that I love to stop being lazy and get into college
>drop out of highschool (planned to anyway, but too lazy).
>GED with high honors in 3 subjects
>fire of 10,000 suns
>Summerclasses
>aced like a fucking tank
>want to be a good provider for our future family
>this guy she has old feelings for comes in, she assures me nothing is wrong
>all the sudden, she gets 'confused', doesn't know what she wants
>take 30 steps back in the relationship
>she chooses me and tells him to fuck off, deletes phone, skype, facebook.
>winrar
>but
>mfw I can't trust her.
I want to so fucking badly. I love the shit out of her and forgive her, i know what old feeling feels like and it was a grass was always greener situation. I don't want to let her go, and she wants to be with me.
My fucking face when.
I need help. I'm going to kill myself today.
>>16472197
most women are literal retards with no accountability for their actions... im thankful that there are still some sane ones. You are a gift.
>>16472204
Why? Consider making your own thread so we can try and help you.
>>16471269
You are not and never will be Mallory for the simple fact that she is reliable and trustworthy. I hope you'll have a nice life too and will be happy, in whatever country you decide to live in. That will be all.
I can't triforce
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for FUCK sakes
>>16472197
I'm like you except for another thing that I'm thankful for is how attractive men are always will be and I could never think of females the same way I do of males. They're so attractive and they get better with age ooh lala. There are times when I see a beautiful guy with a some girl and her personality is so awful that I can only think that guy is too precious for her.
I'm not really over you. I miss you everyday
>>16471269
Sigh, I got hit and runned. Which is odd because I live on a dead end street. My passenger mirror was broken, and I have to replace the whole assembly. I don't know anything about cars. I can barely afford the 258$ that it will cost to replace the thing with part and labor.
I can't really afford to work more since I'm in university and everything is kinda at the climax and all kinds of tests are happening. My students I'm tutoring are becoming more self-reliant which I intended, so they don't need me every week which is a major source of income besides my part time job.
Not to mention my car also looks fucked now.
I also had to pay my accompanist for my solo I played at school. I play bassoon but I'm a CS major.
Basically, I have no fucking money. I get a check on Friday and will probably have about a nickel left over after I pay for the service to fix my mirror. I might call in and ask them to reschedule me to a different time next week so I can collect a bit more cash before I get the service, which is probably a dick move.
I get paid twice more I believe from my part time job before Christmas break. The university let's us work as much as we want during finals week though, when the workstudy otherwise has restricted hours.
I'm so fucking broke /adv/. I'm afraid to ask my mom for help because she has no money either.
Also, earlier in the year I had money saved up, but I ran over a nail strip. All my tires needed to be replaced... which hurt my bank.
I won't have money for books next semester. Idk what to do. I don't think getting a job for two weeks or so over the Christmas break will help, or even be possible.
I miss my cousins.
I wish I had something to actually say to them when we call each other, outside of just asking how they are doing.
Thankfully I will see them again next month.
>>16471916
so true in these threadsfam
Broke up with my gf, had to happen and ultimately it's good. But fuck the state it's put me in. My focus is absolute shit, my mood is quite swingy, and I'm exhausted. I've probably slept around ~22 of the last 48 hours. Tips for clearing brain fog? I really have to study.
Also, I unfairly resent the people around me for being happy. I feel pretty lonely, maybe a bit abandoned. I'm sure that will pass in a couple of days. But it's shit.
After senior year of high school a girl I had shared classes with for years wanted to start hanging out with me. We took each others virginities, she gave me her vaginal, oral, and anal cherries in the back of my car. I thought we were going to become serious. A month later she became a sugar baby for a married couple that her parents knew. She started having sex with them for money, booze, etc. I was crushed when I found out. She then went off to a different college and decided to pay for it through escort work.
I was so hurt and angry that I anonymously outed her to her family with emailed pictures of her ads and escort reviews. They completely disowned her. I didn't feel bad about it until the anger died down years later. Now I wish I hadn't done it.
>>16472456
you still alive? Goddamn
>>16472456
Pedo-kun, get a life. At this point it's just sad and pathetic.
>>16472456
That's so heartwarming cousin senpai££ What gifts are you planning to give your cousins this holday season?
>>16472645
Why wouldn't I be?
>>16472648
I do have a life m8. Also, still not a pedo.
>>16472666
Not sure yet. Figuring out gifts for girls their age is kinda hard, as I only have vague ideas of what they are interested in right now. I got a feeling that they already have enough toys as it is.
For the birthday of the older girl, I got her a shoulder bag, a scarf, and two gift tickets to movies, which she seemed to like very much.
I dunno if I should try giving them both something akin to the above.
Any tips would be appreciated. What do 10 and 12 year old girls even like?
>>16472707
>wanked to and kissed underage girls on lips
>not a pedo
pick one
also nobody cares they were 'light pecks on lips initiated by girls' or that you felt bad after wanking.
I am really bad at handling money. So far all i own is bought with money i got from presents, etc.
when i hit my 18th birthday, all my family dug in and gave me around 5k $ to start a life, get a car, at least decent furniture,...stuff like that
now i am sitting here, in a really small rentflat, having like two 20$ ikea shelves and a bed..
i have literally no idea, where that money went.
last semester i got kicked out of the university, for not having the money. i told my family that i didnt like it there - they dont know about my financial issues.
since then i can barely sleep. my part-time-job got exchanged for a slightly higher paying full-time-job - but i hit another tax-level and so ive got fewer money left..
i literally cant tell, what drains all that money, because there are no drug or gambling addictions,
but hey...at least i am not in debt...right?
I am sorry for how I hurt you, even though you redefined cruelty, in the end. I never wanted you to feel such anger, or pain, and I will never truly forgive myself for causing you such. I never wanted to hurt you, especially as I did.
I was not ready for you; I never knew a woman like you could exist, or that I was capable of such emotion. I was utterly unprepared.
I know what I cost us, and how very rare what we shared actually is. I know we will never experience that with anyone else, and that you and I will never feel whole. I will carry this with me, always.
I am sorry.
>>16472729
A single mistake hardly condemns one for life.
My feelings towards the girls do not stem from sexual attraction towards them, thus I am not a pedo.
>>16472729
This.
You damage those children more than you will ever realize, or admit.
>>16471269
All wound up, on the edge, terrified?
>>16472765
How exactly am I damaging them by spending time with them, and being responding to their affection?
>>16472764
>a single mistake
cousin lover, you obsess over them for at least a year if not longer, and that's what pedos do. They obsess over children.
>my feelings towards the girls do not stem from sexual attraction towards them
yeah, wanking is totally asexual. Get fucked you sicko.
>>16471684
No, they won't be.
They won't help someone who has to pay alimony because of a child conceived out of wedlock.
They will abandon him.
This is not a hateful person. This is a human. That other 'thing' is not.
You are projecting.
>>16472764
You MASTURBATED to a fantasy involving your PRETEEN COUSINS.
These mental gymnastics, and denial, is why you will never have a healthy relationship with them.
>>16472772
I never claimed that wanking was asexual.
>>16472777
No I didn't.
I tried to wank after getting aroused in a situation where one of the girls had basically been grinding herself against me, but I got too disgusted to carry on. I was not reacting to a fantasy, but to physical stimuli, that I had never experienced before (having another human physically press herself so close to me/grinding against me).
>>16472786
Tell your therapist about the masturbation, events leading up to it, and get back to us then.
>>16472797
Why?
I have masturbated to way stranger shit than just arousal due to physical contact.
>>16472786
>>16472786
but you claimed that your attraction isn't sexual and yet you wanked to them... You let them grind on you for god's sake.
Also
>I was not reacting to a fantasy, but to physical stimuli, that I had never experienced before (having another human physically press herself so close to me/grinding against me).
is a pile of bullshit as well, if you were in a crowded bus and had some girl pressing on you, would you wank to that?
>>16472797
He won't tell that part because he realises his therapist would connect the dots
>>16472805
It involves your cousins, and feelings towards them.
As these emotions have been brought up in previous sessions, your mental health professional may be able to shine more light on the situation.
Why wouldn't you talk to him about this?
>>16472807
My feelings for the girls aren't sexual.
I wanked due to being aroused via physical contact I had never experienced before.
And I did try to stop her from grinding herself against me, but she started hitting me when I tried to lift her off from my lap.
> if you were in a crowded bus and had some girl pressing on you, would you wank to that?
Not in the buss...
>>16472814
I have already talked about my feelings for my cousins with him. It's not like he is unaware of my affection towards them.
>>16472816
Why would I talk about masturbation to him in general?
That's a super fucking awkward subject to bring up.
>>16472821
Well, it may be awkward, but what if the relationship is unhealthy, and said masturbation is a symptom of this? Would you want to hurt these children you claim to live, and be so selfish, if your therapist finds the relationship to be an unhealthy one?
It warrants discussion, and you have to see that.
So this girl at my school asks me out via note. I don't really know her, so I declined in the nicest way possibly and haven't heard back from her since.
That was a week ago, now today some dude told one of my classmates that he hates me. That's all, no reason was specified. I'm guessing that the guy is a friend of the girl that asked me out and wants to beat me ass, but I'm not sure.
>>16472845
That wank thing occurred once, over a year ago.
It was hardly a symptom of anything other than total lack of experience with physical contact with other humans.
My boyfriend got those stupid snake bite piercings last weekend without telling me and I literally cried all night because I hate them so much. I think he looks like an emo loser now and he knew I'd absolutely hate them but got them anyway. I sound like a baby but this change is way too much for me to handle. I don't like them at all and it's making me less attracted to him. I'm so upset.
>>16472877
gee, wonder why he won't talk to his shrink about it...
I wish they'd just talk to me.
>>16472925
Again, why should I?
The only thing I have over everyone else is that I don't depend on anyone. or at leasr, not like they do.
it's edgy but it's true. they talk as though if certain people left their lives they wouldn't function.
Cousin fapper why.. I thought wrong.
Sometimes I'm afraid I'll never get what I want out of life. One day, everything seems possible, the next day it all seems out of my reach. I don't know what to do, and the more I think about it, the more I think that the only thing I can do is wait around and see what happens, accept what I can't change and put some effort into the things I do have control over. Still, the feeling of being powerless and/or not having any control is pretty shitty, desu.
>>16473193
What?
i'm so depressed from my boyfriend taking me for granted. I wish i could get mad and just break up with him, but I'm still helplessly in love with him.
i think he's going through a stage in his life where he wants to experience "hook-up" culture because it's all he ever talks about.
he's always projecting other couples problems onto our own relationship
it used to be so simple, it used to be so fucking easy to love him.
3 years and i feel like i don't even know him anymore
my girlfriend fucking annoys me half the time, and does the most simple shit to piss me off (not on purpose.)
nigga this neighbor downstairs is a chimp im sure of it
>>16473291
wat if it was a pimp all along m80
I fucking hate you Tabitha you stupid fucking bitch. But I fucking love you. God fucking damnit.
Ahh, you actually looked back today when you left. I'm dying. I really want to know what you meant by partner, but I am afraid to find out. You could have chosen any other word to be less ambiguous. I don't want to pop this fantasy bubble...
bad doge
Im not talking to many people because i dont want people listening to what i have to say
I feel horrible. Over the course of five months, it all went downhill. Uni, family, social life, everything. My birthday is in six days and all I want is to become a better person. Fuck presents, fuck money, I just want to make it all better or travel back in time and make things right.
>>16473413
Pop it now yourself by your own terms before someone else pops it for you and shatters you.
I can't really find happiness anymore. I have friends, a social life, pretty good grades yet I find myself constantly depressed. None of my hobbies interest me anymore because I have no motivation or energy to do anything, it fucking sucks
>>16472281
i feel you senpai
>>16473470
Or, you could fix things right now. You can choose to fix it or wallow in self pity. Your choice.
I feel like a child. I haven't been keeping up with people my age for almost a decade, and it feels hopeless now. They're falling in love, or beyond that, and I never learned what it really means to be a good freind.
Feels good to be alive and free anon senpais.
I am a horrible person. I am digging my own grave through self pity and self sabotage and probably hurting others in the process. I can't concentrate anymore and my empathy is reducing moving from compulsion to the next. I want to to hangout more with my family and bet there for them actually do well in my academic life. I am to old to be codependant and have my family driving me some fraction of the way to my uni or not contributing anything to household chores or moneys. I have no hobbies, friends to speak of in my uni except 1 even though there are like 2 guys and girls who I know a little from 2 different highschools I attended. I am skip biweekly uni because of the distance and my dreams seem to be going far away. I have begun accepting doing poorly and putting less effort then my already low effort into school. I sometimes wish I could just lock myself in a room and just not see anyone for days with only books around me.A friend of mine at uni's been wondering why I don't come much to class and where I have been and it made feel kind of guilty. Also, ever since I have been commuting to uni I keep hearing voices on the subway or train and somehow I always think they are taking about me. Its always similar lines oh shes staring at our reflection on the window,she's shy, she looks smart,she's always studying on the bus,she's different and looks emotional. I can't understand whether it is a hallucination and the discomfort causes me to smile and laugh soundlessly. It makes me uncomfortable and the words perpetuate the guilt cause lately public transit is the only place I have been truly studying. I have things on my mind that I want to do and should be doing for momentary pleasures. I find myself awake late night sweating and feeling dizzy or out of breath in panic nearby the time I actually begin working on my projects due to last minute work stress. While reading sometimes I zone out listen to myself reading then understanding. I feel like a nut case. T-T
I wish I could take back 90% of my decisions.
Stop watching me!
>>16471303
are you also a woman? best course is just to ignore her and/or kill her with kindness. People like that have no idea what to do when the person they proclaim to hate is extremely nice to them. It fucks them up. So when she says "I fucking hate you" turn around and say something like "I really like your shoes."
Even if it doesn't work, you're giving her a thorough mind fucking.
>>16472759
Who is this for?
It's been almost a year since you left, I feel like I should do something on the 22nd in responce. Maybe a painting, a photograph, a note?
Because then maybe you'll see it and realize I still want you in my life. That it's not too late to carry on as we once did.
I want my best friend back. What about it Lily, we Just sit in Costa and talk like we used too?
>>16473606
I'm trying to find a fucking flaw in you! That's it!!
I'm tired of missing you. So I'm going to pretend you no longer exist. Bon Voyage, J. I hope I never write about you again.
>>16472197
praise you
Fuck this, why do I feel sad? My life is pretty fucking bonkers right now, but apparently it isn't enough and I feel like wanting to kill myself. Fuck this, fuck myself, fuck everything.
>>16473984
Why do you want to kill yourself?
>>16474012
I just feel I want to cry or harm myself for no reason.
>>16474019
Then cry. I've been crying a lot recently, it actually can be kind of helpful.
>>16474026
Thanks, it's really helpful. You can't vent with anyone irl because they'll say you're a fag.
>>16474040
Yeah, I get that. I come here to vent but it hasn't been working recently. I started a journal, there are good websites for it now, it's private but it's just a good place to go and write down my emotions and stuff. And crying is good too. Whatever you're going through, it'll be okay. For now, cry and listen to music and vent on here... You'll get through it. Good luck!
>>16471269
I achieved my solo life dream and I know feel empty
The fact that I'm so fucking happy and have my life more together than ever since breaking up with my ex tells me a lot, a LOT about how much of a fucking drain she was on every single aspect on my life. I'm bitter about how much time I wasted with her but I guess I'm lucky it was less than three years. I need to get better taste in women and/or try dating guys.
i think the worst thing about being in this weird stage of my relationship where my bf doesn't know what he wants is that i'm still horny
like would it be fucked up if i told him i wanted him to eat me out knowing that he's still going to treat me like a stranger afterwards
I've finally met the perfect guy for me but my anxiety is preventing myself from taking further action. We are currently fwb and he has made it clear that wether we get in a relationship or not he doesnt care, he just wants to have fun with me. I really want to be in a relationship with him. But i keep having anxiety attacks thinking that if we get in a relationship my feelings will just fade away like they did in my last long term relationship. Its so bad to the point where when im with him sometimes ill feel like throwing up cause im afraid of taking the next step. I just want to be happy with him and not worry about my feelings. But my body just freaks out and i cry my eyes out every night. Fuck me....
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The greatest thing that has come out of hueland.
Every dream I can recall contains her in it. She says she's finally feeling good about being independent. Why the fuck didn't I just try to work things out when I could've? Why did I stay mad? I'm more of a wreck now than at any point when we were still together. Once again, I find myself in this familiar emotional-abyss pattern of anhedonia and despair, with only a single friend to rely on. I hope she texts me again. It's like Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind- when you break up with your love, it's like brain damage. you're trying to forget them, but these memories you have with that special person in your life are so strong that when their presence is gone, it's like your brain just lets the memories take their place because you miss them so much. She's a part of me. And I never realized how much it hurts to be alone until now. Wish I could just rewind the last four years and start all over again.
>>16472773
>>16471297
>>16471287
You need God, my friend. Why do you shy away from His holy Love?
My boyfriend talks to other males in almost a flirtatious manner. It makes me really uncomfortable, in fact, he does this to everyone and it's really cringing. Especially that he identifies as a heterosexual male. WTF. Be normal.
>>16474290
I got some "Holy" love for you bby :^)
>>16473613
The only woman I have ever loved.
You make me feel like I'm alive again.
Maybe I'm supposed to be alone. I don't think I deserve friends or a girlfriend. Makes perfect sense to me
>>16474479
Why don't you deserve that? I feel the same way sometimes, I just want your opinion.
>>16474458
Same
I just want to brag.
Six months ago I was overweight, had a pretty ridiculous dependency on alcohol to get through the day and was in a relationship where me and the girl treated each other like shit.
I got epilepsy and she dumped me shortly after. I hated myself so much I wanted to inflict pain on myself so I just forced myself to run, started with like 1/4 mile and now I run about 5 miles a day and have been for a couple months. Started doing calisthenics to because why not.
I've lost 50 pounds since then and feel awesome. I haven't had a drink since then, and I don't miss it. I started reading books on self improvement because my drinking was covering up for some kind of deficiency I thought I had. I now make eye contact with people, feel in command of myself when I talk, and don't feel embarrassed by my actions day in day out. I've been approached by women who I'd consider out of my league. This is ridiculous.
Somehow epilepsy was like the best thing that happened to me
>>16474524
good for you man.
pretty much every gay activity makes me gag, but i would love to lay my cock and balls flat against a buddy's cock and balls and rub them slowly together as we relax and watch TV or a movie.
>weight gain
>can't stop eating like shit
>can't stop smoking
>can't stop missing school
>can't stop fucking up
>can't stop sleeping
>can't stop
>can't
make it stop.
Or I guess I should just do it already.
>>16472202
>>16472202
it's not a race to the finish. Treat it like it is, an impediment in a relationship. The pain you're feeling is totally normal and justified, you're just mourning the ideal of your relationship vs. the reality. This is something that will pass and can be worked through if you both decide you want to.
It's hard as fuck to hear this, but just relax and remind yourself that she chose you. Communicate to her in a way that makes it possible for you two to work together, not just shaming her for having doubts. And don't harp on it, you can't become an insecure nutjob over this or the relationship will for sure be over. Work together on coming up with ideas that will make the relationship more secure (this is important).
Esp. in relationships that start young, there are definitely going to be speedbumps along the way. Life is very long, this could be just a pebble on the road you two share
>>16474524
Proud of you
>>16474535
No, you shouldn't. Cause all of that shit you just said is temporary, it's stuff you can get through. You can work out, you can retake classes or study hard, all of that. Good luck.
I'm probably going to take advantage of her bicuriosity and fuck her knowing how I am. and of course, I'm probably going to end up the bad guy knowing how I am.
I am constantly struggling to do the bare minimum to succeed in this life. Outwardly I appear like I should be happy. I have hobbies, a loving boyfriend, family, friends, pets, I'm a good worker, I get good grades.
But for years, I've been so depressed. Existentially. Everything is such a pain, I rarely have fun or enjoy myself, and when I do it's so short lived. Life seems like it's one big pile of shit with a handful of nice things to tide you over. I've never seen the point. For as long as I can remember, I've always thought life was so pointless. I've been suicidal for years.
Despite being "smart" and all the people who care for me, I always feel useless, like a terrible person. I never feel loved enough. I'm hopelessly insecure. I feel lonely, always, even when among friends. I don't want to live this life. I don't want to do any of it. I don't want to work full time. I don't want to always worry about other people, but I don't want to be alone. When I have free time, I squander it, browsing 4chan instead of doing things I like because I'm always so exhausted no matter how much I sleep. 6 hours, 8 hours, 12 hours, I always feel sore and tired. I can't remember anything. I feel like an alien.
Every day I beg for death, both in my head and out loud. Everyone knows how I feel, but it's become so commonplace it's just nothing. I joke about dying and everyone just laughs "haha, that's Anon", and that's what I want. I want to tell everyone how I feel without being a burden. It works.
There's nothing I can think "oh, if I do THIS things will get better", because I have it so good already.
I just want to die.
I just want to feel loved.
I just want to be happy.
There is a mouse in my house that is impossible to kill.
I set up both a Havahart trap and a regular snap trap to get him, but he runs of with the bait food.
I set up two traps where I usually keep my clean dish rack, since he likes to hide around there, and he hasn't gone to them in the hours since then.
Currently, he's living under the stove top through one of the electric burner holes. He's been watching me with his big black eyes sometimes.
I think he may even be too smart to get caught in a trap. Is that even possible?
I really hope the traps get him by tomorrow. If they don't, it's gonna be one more thing to piss me off on my first day of work at a job I'm already worried about.
Going to be now.
I really want to find something I can do freelance that I enjoy and can excel at so I can make money off that instead of having to go to work. My main career is lucrative but very few opportunities during the year, so it's slow going. Need to pad out the rest of the months with SOMETHING, y'know?
But what? That's the fucking issue. My country is small and it sucks and you need a ton of capital to start a business or service of sorts. That's ignoring the fact I still dunno what I could do.
Brain fog, man. Brain fog and worries. Paralyzing and I wouldn't even consider myself a sedentary man.
I hate myself so fucking much. I don't know how to deal with it anymore. When I try to improve I just fail. I think it's time for a late abortion.
i panic because of the fear of being emotionally attacked.
brain fog can be from too much wheat ive read.
can feel my body starting to shut down. well, I'll die happy. "it's always darkest before it turns absolutely pitch black". I loved you all.
>>16474756 shut down from what?
I just found out that there's a 95% chance that I have late persistent Lyme disease.
I'm pretty sure I have a bipolar disorder. I go from being super proud of myself to total depression and feeling like a total shit for almost no reason at all.
Again, I wen't from happiness to total misery.
I'm genuinely starting to get scared of myself. I'm afraid that I might someday end up hurting myself. Will I ever be sane? Will I ever stop getting randomly depressed for no reason?
I'm scared of getting help because of any medicine they might give me, I feel like it would change me from who I am. Crazy people scare me. I don't want to be labeled crazy.
I am with someone and I like them and we have stuff in common and I enjoy their company, but I know it won't last forever.
They dislike people and get annoyed too easily and let their anger consume them too often. He says he loves me but I wonder how much he really does. I don't love him yet and I like him, but I am not sure it would be a good idea to love him. He is sweet for the most part, but he can be childish and he is not always very understanding. I have been at his place basically every day now and it is fun, but sometimes I hug him and look at him and get sad because I know that it will probably not work out in the end and after that I will be alone again.
Also when he is being irrational or fussy I am scared of how mad I can be before it is too much, so I end up basically just letting everything slide because I don't want to lose him. Having him around is nice and I really enjoy his company for the most part.
I am happy to have another person who likes having me around and I really like hanging out with him. I know he will do something irrational and it will end at some point, but I am dreading when that happens. I just really like having a connection and having fun with someone.
Why do things have to be like this? Why will it have to end? I know it is inevitable but I don't want it to happen. Things like this really suck
>>16474777
That really sucks, good luck anon and I am sorry that is happening to you
I need to have sex
I can't help but feel a small bit of delight at the death of all those people in Paris. The thought of them having fun outside, surrounded with their friends and living blissfully, while I'm a kissless virgin bitter against society and women specifically, and then dying suddenly filled me with the satisfaction of a successful revenge. I'm probably a bad person for thinking this but I am such a loser sometimes, I felt like this was a victory for me
You should probably kiss me when you see me again. See if the chemistry is there.
>>16475002
If you felt like this was victory for you then you really must be a pathetic, hopeless person. I hope you'll an hero soon.
>>16474812
What are you, a teenager? Because I said the same thing when I was a stupid kid.
Get help and get your meds, if you're "scared of yourself." If crazy people scare you, you don't want to sit back and let your problems get worse. Take it from someone (bipolar 1) who has been forced into a mental hospital. There will be crazy people aplenty.
If you can't take the most basic steps to help yourself, then shut the hell up.
>>16474972
It's seriously overrated.
God fucking damn, I come into work and the first thing I get bitched at is that I forgot to restock some lids. Despite the fact everything else got done and I've been doing everything perfectly for the past 5 months of me closing the store, I make ONE FUCKING MISTAKE, and my boss and her yes-man co-worker goes on a fucking rant.
I'm sorry, is it so fucking hard to restock some fucking lids when you come in? I'm never acknowledged when I take the time to do opening's shifts work as well to make it fucking easy, I even organize the food for you in the display case so you don't have to do it in the morning. But no, nothing I do gets acknowledged.
Boo fucking hoo, a lot of people come in the morning, they do the same shit in the fucking evening where I get a huge amount of people coming literally 5 minutes before I close. And I have to do extra tasks after we close. Opening, all you people to do is prepare food and coffee and put out milk carafes and you're fucking done.
Also Lisa, stop fucking asking me to fix your computer. I don't have time to deal with your shit, take it to a fucking geek squad in a best buy and pay 500 bucks or something.
God damn, this is a bitchfest of a post, but I'm just so angry that I get called out for a little fucking mistakes.
I'll probably calm down because they usually forget about it later, but holy shit man I'm so fucking mad.
i wish i had friends
i wish i wasn't just part of the background
i wish my childhood wasn't so fucked up
i wish i was normal
My mom abandoned me. My father took me in and my step mom resents me and all my anger i dish out on my father. I'm sorry I can't help it. My half sister loves me but I can't trust women at all not even her.
My step brother is a fucking cry baby. Started balding at 22. Got keked by his lesbian ex. He hates me for calling him a pussy and I hate his dad for hating me.
My biological brother was loved by my mother and now he's a greedy psychopath.
I yell and scream because I have no way to vent my frustrations other than at my family.
>>16475042
I'm not attracted to women in my community they remind me of my mother.
Are all women the same? Greedy narcissistic cunts? I wish I could just stop it all and live a normal life.
>>16475044
No, not all women are the same, you just convince yourself that they are so you can stop obsessing over them.
>>16475019
I'm not completely pathetic, I go to an elite school and my career choice will almost surely land me in a high paying job. But I'm a complete failure in every other aspect. I won't an hero if thats what you want, I still have things to accomplish
>>16475044
>Are all women the same?
No, anon. They're not.
But you gotta understand - they might not know about your relationship with your mum. Just because they act in a certain why doesn't mean they're trying to piss you off by making you think of your mum.
>>16475038
I sympathise with you bruh. But have you tried actually telling your boss this shit? Or is your job so important to you that you simply cannot talk back due to the risks of getting fired?
Know that problems persist until you fix them somehow. Silence is consent.
>>16475042
You treat your father like that, despite him being the only reason you are not homeless?
>>16475044
You strike me as exactly what you fear all women to be.
Either get professional help, or shut the fuck up, and focus on improving yourself, your life. Do not fool yourself, as you are obviously not ready for a real relationship with another human being.
>>16475042
>>16475044
you sound truly fucked up and mad, I feel sorry sorry for you bruh
>>16475051
You really believe there were not people as socially inept as yourself among the victims, or some that were even worse?
I feel nothing, as no one I knew was a victim, but feeling joy? What is your favorite Slipknot song?
>>16475074
I have anger management issues, so when they do this, I just stay quiet. Its usually just in the moment and within a hour or two they'll forget about it so it's not really worth fighting over it.
I'm afraid of going too far and saying something I'll regret. I can find another job without too much of a problem, but this job is close to my home and the rest around me kind of suck so I'd prefer not to get fired. I doubt I would either, but it's more or less I have bad self control and worry I'll say really terrible things to my boss.
I just wanted to vent in that post, I've calmed down now.
I will tell Lisa to fuck off though.
>>16475102
Lmao, you do that. I can relate to the anger issues and the fear, yes. It's why I am really not confrontational. The angrier I am, the more tactless I become until I'm just frothing at the mouth and screaming obscenities and waving a chair around. But if you are calm, I'm sure you can put down a coherent and civil argument to discuss with your boss in private. Simply realize you might get angry and when you feel that coming on, excuse yourself and drop the subject. If your boss won't listen by the time you get mad, she certainly won't listen after.
>>16475102
Remember that he unleashes a mountain of shit on you, as this is probably as far as he'll go in life. Smile, nod, and think of your future. Stoically accept this.
He obviously is a poor member of the management team, as he fails to notice what you do, and what other employees do not. Factor in his yes-man, and you should almost pity the fool, lol.
I'm skipping class right now and I feel guilty. But I 'm a fucking lazy nigger
>>16473225
Initials?
>>16474679
When you fail, you gotta get up and keep going.
>>16475009
Maybe you should kiss me... Cause I know there's chemistry, even with your doubts
I don't deserve love. I represent humanity's faults apparently. At least, that's what the little voice in my head tells me. It's usually right.
>>16475246
Care to share any initials? I know the chemistry is there too.
I posted this as its own thread but I guess it belongs here:
>inb4 attention whore
Yeah no shit, I'm desperate enough to post on /adv/
"I apologize ahead of time if any/all of this is incoherent; I'm on the verge of a meltdown and I'm just typing as I go.
The background is that I have camus level mental problems where I know I should feel things in certain situations but just don't, complete apathy and nonexistent passion. I was managing just fine back when I just had sexual/romantic relations for two weeks at a time (max) and now I've been with a girl for almost a year and I'm beginning to implode.
The girl I'm with is everything I asked for and more, I can't imagine my life for the last year without her but at the same time the thought of being with someone long term absolutely terrifies me.
Don't even get me started on marriage, just the thought of getting married makes me nauseous and I'm most likely will never want biological children but that's aside from the point.
She has told me on numerous occasions that she loves me but there is no way in hell I could reciprocate that feeling, I don't even love my own family. I don't want to let this go because what we have is good and because I don't have the balls to. Yet every time I think of the future it tears me to shreds. It doesn't help that I'm unbearably indecisive.
I'm lost and in perpetual panic. I'll probably slip back into depression if this continues. I don't even know what I'm asking for, I just needed to put this into words."
>>16475311
A first name that starts with M would mean something to both of us. Anyway doubt you're my person but hey, who knows. Have a nice day.
She's a hippie piece of shit, and I love it. She's pretty fucking damn perfect in every way. I wouldn't know how to tell her how I feel though.
>>16475331
Unfortunately not. Have a nice day too though.
My friends are all suddenly having girlfriends and getting laid and shit and I feel left out, especially since their girlfriends hang out with all of us and I'm the only one there who sits alone, walks alone and does stuff alone.
Hearing my friends talk about how they got the best BJ ever or whatever doesn't help, but I don't wanna leave them since they're my best bros and we still get along really well.
I miss you, but I can handle that. I can't handle the fact that I'm worried about you, though. Just let me know if you're okay?
Every time I have a day where I feel like I've gotten my shit together and feel happy, I have another day or two where it feels like everything's fallen apart.
I did literally nothing today. I watched some TV and I sat in bed scrolling through 4chan trying not to think about cutting my wrists open.
I've avoided looking at the bookshelf across the room all day because I thought there was a box cutter up there. Told myself it's fine, I'm too drained to get out of bed to get over there anyway. But I've just realised it's actually in a drawer beside me. And part of me thinks I should move it away, and another part thinks I can't risk touching it.
I felt so alright when I woke up today, I really thought it might be another good day.
The girl I love changed from being deeply in love with me to not giving a shit anymore. She used to want to see me every day to just cuddle and chat about anything. She was missing me a lot even if we didn't see for only like 3 days.
Suddenly she's not paying any attention to me. It's really hard to get her to say anything to me. She doesn't text me anymore and when I want to see her, she's "super busy" for the next two weeks.
I don't think I've done anything bad. I tried confronting her about this but she's saying she hasn't noticed any change in her actions. I think we both know that it's not true.
I'm just heartbroken that something's clearly bothering her and she just won't tell me. What could have possibly gone wrong? It feels like she just gave me the chance of seeing how it's like to love a 5/5 girl and then just took it all away from me. I wonder if she'll ever be back.
I had the chance to act as an extra in a movie
I was super excited because it was gonna distract me from the fact that I'm broke and can't go to the con.
I specify my available times, send in photo
They accept, send me the time to be there
Literally the only day I can't go, because of work. If I wasn't broke i'd take the day off but I can't afford it.
Feels bad :(
>>16475461
I work in the industry. Usually extra work in movies give a half-decent pay, in the short run more than what your average worker makes. It's just not feasible because it's not stable or constant work.
>>16475465
I'm not sure if this one was pay or volunteers because it's independent, I don't work in the industry. It's cinequest, shooting for the festival in march
>>16475469
unfortunately I'm not in the States so I can't really say, but if you have contact with them, what are you waiting for? Send an e-mail and ask, pronto! You might be just assuming and you'll miss a great opportunity!
I know the states have a comprehensive network of unions and all that shit, but unsure if it affects extras. In the UK it does, but in my country there's no infrastructure at all. Give it a shot.
Sexual harassment is disgusting but some of the guy's who condemn sexual deviants also piss me off. They're usually the type of guys who have never had any trouble getting laid. I kind of don't think those type of guys have the right to judge sexual harassers since they most likely don't know what its like to be extremely sexually frustrated. In fact I think that if those types of guys weren't considered attractive alot of them would be out sexual harassing women themselves. Personally I know that myself and alot of the anons here have the right to judge rapists and other types of sexual deviants because we truly know what sexual frustration feels like without committing crimes. It just pisses me off when I see people who are sexually liberated judge people who commit crimes out of sexual frustration.
why is my body so fucking worthless i just want to have a successful life and be able to enjoy things i love. working out, travelling, going to school. but nope
>>16475478
>I kind of don't think those type of guys have the right to judge sexual harassers
EVERYONE has a right to judge sexual harassers you fucking walnut. You're harassing people. It's illegal, not to mention rude, for a reason. Judgement was passed around the time that we established people have individual rights
Stop fucking whining, stop harassing people who don't want your fucking advances.
>>16475507
That's easy to saybwhen you have what you want. It's like a guy jborn into richness judging a homeless guy for stealing. Sure stealing is wrong but the hypothetical rich guy doesn't have the right to judge the homeless guy since he has no clue what poverty is located is. Also I'm not saying that we need to be 100% empathetic towards criminals but that some people just don't have the right to judge others and act as if they are morally superior snce they havebeen given the tools to obtain what they want in life without earning it.
>>16475546
No, we DO have the right to judge others who sexually harass. Sexually harassing someone is not the same as stealing food when you're hungry, no matter how desperate for poon you may be, you will live, possibly your entire fucking life without having sex. It's fucking pitiful that you compare a homeless person who may go without shelter from the elements or without food to some loser who isn't mentally, physically or even financially attractive enough to score.
If you don't get sex, guess what that fucking blows but you don't get to get away with a pity card for making people uncomfortable with your disgusting advances
>>16475550
Wait your taking what I said out of context and when did I say that I was going out doing these crimes?
>>16475550
>possibly your entire fucking life without having sex
You have absolutely NO idea how ridiculous that sounds. The majority of humans are innately sexual beings. Not having any sex for their entire existence isn't good for anyone's mental health.
>>16474211
I'm a huelander and couldn't agree more if I tried. Bossa Nova is the shit.
>>16475564
>Wait your taking what I said out of context and when did I say that I was going out doing these crimes?
I didn't say you were. I said there is 0 fucking excuse for anyone who does. It's disgusting behavior and deserves no pity, plain and simple.
>>16475565
People have gone their entire lives virgins. The fact is that from an evolutionary standpoint, some people don't get to play the game. You have to be worth it. It's not owed to you, you are not entitled to sex. Either you are a fit competitor or you are not and you don't get the booty.
NEEDS are things that you could plausibly die without. 3 minutes without air, 3 hours without safety/cover from the elements, 3 days without water, 3 weeks without food. You can go 3 months, 3 years, hell 3 decades without sex. People have died virgins. Maybe they're a little strung up but it is NOT a need, but it's not surprising that buttmad permavirgins want to try to classify it as such in order to further play the victim
>>16475593
>It's disgusting behavior and deserves no pity, plain and simple
I didn't say that it wasn't disgusting I was just saying that some people don't have the right to act like if they experienced the same level of sexual frustration that they would turn out any better.
I have a panic disorder, major depressive disorder, and chronic migraines. Got kicked out of my college for being too ill. You guys have no fucking idea how good you have it. Instead fucking bitching like babies about your boyfriend/girlfriend/cousin/daddy issues. If you want fucking help then fucking act like it, do something about it. If it cant be helped then fucking deal with it. I would rather be in your place with stupid fucking common relationship issue then with my fucking taxing illness. Everyday i wake up i need to fucking survive my fucking attacks. Thank god for benzos. Just be fucking grateful youre alive because at least youre not me
>>16475615
>only I'm allowed to complain
>'children in Africa' tier complaining
Give me a break, anon.
>>16475612
You said "sexual harassment shouldn't be judged", your words
It absolutely should. It's a violation of an individuals boundaries based on lack of self control, stemming from a victim complex
if you had said "I wish people who have sex would be more understanding of people with sexual frustration", that would be one thing, however you didn't - you implied those who willingly choose to sexually harass and assault other people because "waaah, muh poor dick" shouldn't be judged.
That is wrong and retarded.
I'm ashamed of myself for stupidly trusting her with all my heart and even more ashamed that I'm ashamed.
I'm angry that she hurt me so badly and even angrier that I, unfortunately, still love her.
And worst of all, I'm afraid I can't trust her because of what she did in the past and how she's acting in the present.
I've never felt so terrible before in my life.
>>16475241
After enough times, you're left with nowhere to go.
>>16475635
Not true. You can have a fresh start at any time you choose. It might be hard and it might seem hopeless, and it might take a shitload of hard work and changes, but when you fail, that's all you can do... Keep moving forward. Because if you stay down, then yeah, you have failed. But if you get up and move forward, then you can still win.
>>16475635
Not him, but I don't believe that. You truly think you've hit rock bottom and everything about your life sucks shit and can't be change?
Run away.
Just pack up and fuck off to another country by boat, plane, car, train or even by foot. Jack a bike if you want. You have nothing left to lose if you're seriously considering taking your life. Go wander the earth, remove everything that bugs the shit out of you about your surroundings by removing yourself from it completely and permanently.
If you find yourself hesitating, then you know you still believe in hope. If not, then you know you are truly free now. Go do some wicked sick shit you only fantasized about or seen in movies.
>>16475624
>You said "sexual harassment shouldn't be judged", your words
You just took my words out of context AGAIN. I literally just said that people who have sex can not pretend like they are morally superior to the harasser since they have no clue what it's like to be in that position and in fact they could be committing the exact same crime or worse if they weren't getting any sex. The people who do have the right to judge sexual harassers are people
who have been or currently are sexually frustrated because they know that it's possible for them do deal with the situation and not commit crimes.
>>16475645
My thoughts exactly, >>16475635 pay attention to that. I don't know what has you down, but worst case, start over fresh. Family got you down? Fucking leave, go to a state/province (or, hell, country) that they don't live in and never speak to them again. School got you sad? Cool, drop out and learn some life lessons on another continent. Life can be fucking beautiful and magnificent, it can be hard to see that when you're stuck and sad, but you can free yourself. And if you don't want to do that, then there must be a reason... And that's your reason to try again and keep going. Don't wanna leave the country cause something, anything, is keeping you here? Then, there's your reason to move forward.
Just don't lay down and take it.
>>16475615
>at least youre not me
what is this teenage angst
I dont know why I cant apply myself
>>16475673
My family is irrelevant to me. I've already failed out of school. I've already tried traveling. I don't know how to enjoy it. All I can do is work miserable entry level jobs for survival, for no reason. I don't have the willpower to learn to do anything better. Yes I'm aware all these things are my fault, which is why I should eliminate the source of my problems.
>>16475791
Not them but man, it's not about travelling, it's about starting fresh. If you don't like yourself then its time to start over. I hated who I was as a student and dependent in my family, I was feeling sad and started self harming like I was a fucking emo 12 year old, so I packed up, moved to the other coast, and started over. Took up two low paying but interesting jobs, which took my mind off myself and my issues. Lived with 2 other people in a basement of a house, which allowed me to meet new people, since 3 people lived upstairs too. The sudden change and the new scenery and new people will make you be a new person. I started working out, I learned how to talk to people, I learned about my new city and province, I learned all about landscaping from my roommate so now I make money on the weekends with that and we plan to open up our own business by next summer, I learned all about small businesses thanks to my part time job... You don't have the willpower when you're in a boring situation and it all feels forced, but if you make the change and force yourself, it'll be worth it.
HELP!
Caught my girlfriend ERPing (Erotic Role Playing) on World of Warcraft, I'm not 100% sure how I feel about this, in my eyes it's cheating, but on the other hand, it's just roel playing...
Should I be mad? She's been doing it behind my back for a long time now, she doesn't do any out of role play chatting with these people (Or so she tells me)
How would you feel if the person you were dating was ERPing online?
Don't worry, I'll give you all the space you need. I was wrong, I hurt you, it's my fault how you currently feel and there are no excuses. Can we please move on from this and let things go back to normal!
>>16475887
Should I be mad?
No you shouldn't be mad you pathetic little faggot, this is fucking World of wARCRAFT it's a fantasy video game.
If only I had what it takes to talk to someone. Meet a girl. At this point I would be VERY ok to be friendzoned, a female friend wouldn't be too bad. I don't have many friends anymore, starting to lose contact with my old pals anyway.
>>16475892
He shouldn't be mad that his girlfriend is online dirty talking other guys to help them cum?
Yeah...okay
I loved her and she told me she did. Well I guess she made me believe, she thought of leaving her bf. But she never did, so at some point I just told her to choose....been thinking about her everyday even if she is a fucking slut. And after thinking about it, if she cheated on her bf with me, I knew I would never be able to fully trust her.
She's still my SO and probably the only woman I will truly love even if she completely destroyed me and I don't know how to deal with this fucking pain in my stomac every goddamn second of the day. I gave her everything and she threw it away like it did not matter. Like she was not the one asking me to wait for her. She just stopped. And now...now I'm alone and it is not fair.
>>16475865
What if you start over and find that you're the same piece of shit wherever you go?
>>16475955
What makes you such a piece of shit then, in your opinion?
>>16475887
It's absolutley no different to cybering/phonesex/that kind of thing. The actual method of communication doesn't really make any odds, the point is that your gf is taking pleasure in talking to some horrible little bastard knowing full well that he's about to bust a nut all over his last clean t shirt. I'm pretty sure that if she came home to find you on the phone to some other chick like "yeah, that's it, rub your clit with one of the pawns, now take the bishop and stick it in your ass", telling her that you were just playing chess would probably not make her any less emotional.
>>16475892
>etic little faggot, this is fucking World of wARCRAFT it's a fantasy video game
You're one of those guys who hangs around the Goldshire Inn on Argent Dawn EU offering female Draeni 500g if they'll let you watch them stick the end of their tail in their own pussy, aren't you?
First time poster, don't have other place or people to talk about it.
Broke my two year relationship with gf after some misunderstandings, I felt she was getting colder, i didn't feel loved anymore. Then she forced a fight and it was done.
A few weeks later, earlier this week, i realised she was talking to an ex-bf from her that she promised wont talk again. Mind you, i didnt bother when we were together, but he was incisive with her. I put together the puzzle and found out she was planning to leave me anyway. It didnt matter what i did to please her, and i was doing lots of things emotionally and financially. It hurted me even more to realise it was a lost game and i was doomed at least by 3 months ago.
I didnt talk my family yet (they loved her very much).
Thanks for you reading.
I have a bit of a fat fetish, I've kept it secret my whole life, I don't like obese girls, but i get turned on by chubbies. Don't know if i should keep it a secret forever (im kinda embarrassed by it.
>>16475984
>Argent Dawn EU
Not him but holy shit, I spent from Vanilla to about mid WotLK on there and god help me I loathe the fucking place. Goldshire ERP was terrible but the worst offenders where the RP police in Stormwind. All those fucking cliques full of elitist cunts that basically hogged all the RP on the server.
Horde wasn't any better, unless you were a troll and therefore invited to the super sekrit troll clubs.
>>16475669
>I literally just said that people who have sex can not pretend like they are morally superior to the harasser since they have no clue what it's like to be in that position and in fact they could be committing the exact same crime or worse if they weren't getting any sex.
yes, they fucking can you absolute moron. I'm not taking your words out of context, you're just not fucking comprehending that someone who DOES NOT SEXUALLY HARASS SOMEONE can, in fact, be morally superior to someone who does, REGARDLESS of sexual activity. I don't care if you have sex or don't have sex, if you do not have the moral character to not sexually harass someone, you deserve to be judged whether or not that person judging you is having sex. Those things do not fucking matter.
Even ff you are not having sex, and you make the reasoning, adult .choice. to sexually harass someone, you deserve to be judged, whether the person judging is getting laid or not. EVEN if the person is getting laid. You deserve to be judged for it and they deserve to judge you. So long as they are not being a hypocrite and also sexually harassing someone, they reserve the right to judge you. Because you are fucking wrong for doing it. End of story. Period.
>>16475982
I simply have no motivation or self control. I will always eventually default to failure. This is at every level of my life. I realized if I simply persevered I could change, but I'm a complete coward and I fall apart at the most minor inevitable setback. Everything about my personality is garbage.
I'm trying a regimen of sleep deprivation to combat depression.
It's working well.
![1bd4f60baf702ec1655c76fd22d36de9[1].jpg](https://i.imgur.com/hFAmpzi.jpg "1bd4f60baf702ec1655c76fd22d36de9[1].jpg")
I'm anxious over an exam tomorrow, and i desperatly need some way to relax and go to sleep right now.
Something to help me stay relaxed tomorrow morning would be great too.
>>16476040
No you simpleton you still don't get it. You can't go around believing that you are morally superior to anyone if you haven't overcome the same challenges that person has faced without resorting to crime.
Also how would a perosn who is sexually satisfied even know whether they have self restraint for their sexual urges if they are already getting what they want?
>>16476141
>You can't go around believing that you are morally superior to anyone if you haven't overcome the same challenges that person has faced without resorting to crime.
yes you fucking can because A) People do it every day and B) It is a golden standard not to intrude on anyone's personal space without their permission.
It's not a "challenge" to not molest people you creepy fucking cock
You always gotta come back, one way or another, don't you? I guess I'll never truly get rid of you. You're nothing but trouble, but I won't let you control my life.
Another job rejection :(
I'm trying to stay hopeful. I want to be financially independent. $12/hr is all I really need but it seems nearly impossible. No one wants me and I don't know why. But I'm still hoping. It's just getting really hard
>>16476154
>yes you fucking can because A) People do it every day and B)
Just because people do alot of hypocritical things every day it doesn't make it right. Some people are fragile but have gotten lucky by leading a comfortable life with no real challenges, so yeah I'm going to call them out on their bullshit when they try to pretend that if they had it harder they'd still retain their morals.
>>16476207
Can't you make something yourself? I'm in the process of develop a marketable skill/product/s so I can become freelance. It's not an easy path but perhaps if you really need money, you need to look outside the box, friend.
And it'll make you happier too, knowing that you struggled and you have overcome.
>>16476241
I don't give a fuck how hard you THINK you have it, molesting people isn't forgivable. I don't give a fuck if you're a kissless, hand holdless virgin, you don't fucking molest people. And literally everyone gets to judge you if you do
>>16476249
In theory. I wouldn't know what to make. I don't have a lot of energy to dictate to creating things, creating a store, shipping it etc...I'm a mediocre artist and that's just about it. I write but so does literally everyone else, it's a hugely competitive field and a lot of people expect you to do it for free for a while before you even get your foot in the door to be paid. It's just really overwhelming. I'd rather put the skills I have immediately to use somewhere established
>>16475461
Maybe trade shifts with someone.
>>16475331
Your first name or hers? If her, are you a J?
Damn it!
I told him when we first got together that I'm not monogamous! He agreed that we would have an open relationship.
With women, he gets all excited and wants me to 'share' girlfriends with him all the time. We have totally different tastes in women. And the fact that he's straight and was raised around rednecks means that the minute I find another GUY remotely attractive, he starts pulling all this territorial, macho bullshit.
I'm pretty sure I'm head-over-heels in love with my friend Matt. But my husband has specifically said that if I were to ever sleep with this other guy, he would never speak to me again.
I'm wondering if I even care anymore. I've never tried to take control of his sexuality. But he seems dead-set on controlling mine.
And this poor guy is caught in the middle.
Now, when we go to bed, and he wraps his arm around me, I don't feel protected or comfortable. I feel caged and claustrophobic. I've tried to talk to him about it. But his reply is "I can't stop from being jealous, and if you really loved me, you'd accept that." No matter how irrational, or unfair, I just have to accept his ability to veto my prospective lovers? I'm fed up. But I'm also not cruel. I'm not going to go sleep with this guy just to prove a point. No mater how much I want to scream at my husband and break down and cry for a week, I carry on. Because I'm a fucking adult, and I don't want to hurt anyone because of MY emotions running amok.
Fuck. There's no solution to this. There is only misery. But I'm the only one miserable, so I guess the net sum of misery is acceptable. I can take it. At least for a while. I don't know what would happen if I ever gave in to impulse. But it sure as hell wouldn't be pretty.
Anyway, thanks for listening /adv/.
J
>>16476141
Most people who are sexually satisfied have, in fact, gone without. You're bitching about something that, if you go without it, literally will not kill you. And making terrible analogies, to boot.
Wrap your mind around this. You're the girl being sexually harassed by the creep. How do you feel? Not good about yourself and probably freaked about your situation.
I don't think you have the mental capacity to imagine such things, however, so try this. You're minding your own business when a flaming gay, rather disgusting, old man comes over to you and says "I'm having a sex change soon, this is what I'm going to look like after. I picked you to be my next boyfriend." How you gonna feel?
Maybe just don't be such a piece of shit.
Fucking fuck, fuck. I miss the fuck out you. I love you. I want to talk to you again.
this is so fucking difficult. i already fucking miss you
>>16475945
Initials?
>>16471269
:/
I feel utterly pathetic. I'm depressed, but i never tell anyone i know because I'm too afraid of A) being considered a weak-ass-bitch B) spreading more negativity around C) being accused of attention-grabbing.
So instead, I post here Just so I can get it off of my chest without worrying people I love or giving fuel to the douche-bags.
You're a shitty friend and I wish we never started hanging out. I wish I never got a new lease on this damn place, I want to move far away from here and away from all of the toxic people I've wasted my time getting close to - you especially. I hope your girlfriend wises up to how awful you are and moves on. She deserves better.
After today things have been especially rough.. You're always on my mind, I imagine just giving in today but that would just look pathetic in your eyes.. I already feel that I don't miss companionship, I just miss you.. I went through your Instagram just to recount all of the good memories we've had. I don't want this to be over for good, but I don't want to come running back so soon, I feel like I deserve to torture myself a bit. No other women can possibly compare while you exist.
No amount of studio 54 is going to make this better, since I have to wake up every morning knowing you'll be out of reach for the rest of my time on this earth. This is going to be a very cold winter without you by my side
>>16476702
initials?
>>16476718
T. M
>>16476728
middle?
I don't even care if you would never go out with me, I'm fine being your friend. Just dump that fucking asshole Nathan who makes you cry nearly every single time the group is out.
>>16476755
I'm listening to the album too
>>16476503
Get dumped, did you?
>>16476762
Yeah me too it's pretty good isn't it?
You've got good taste anonymous.
I wish I hadn't pushed you all away. It makes it easier to kill myself which was I guess my goal. Will you come to my funeral? Assuming I have one.
>>16476773
thanks it was actually recommended to me by some really cool guy.
u might be just as cool as him
It was destined to fail before it even began. Too lovestruck to realize the true consequences of staying. Fighting for it to work was a desperate measure undertaken all too frequently. Had an epiphany recently that the connection is missed, not the person, and knowing I will not experience that with another. One very long, drawn out shot of a relationship, never to be had again. I hate myself for letting it get so far.
I have never felt any love. My parents say they love me but they are just words for me. Maybe I'm fucked up, I don't know. Maybe I am. I don't know if throughout my life the negative outweighs the positive or if it's just my negativity altering my memory, because that's all I seem to remember anyways. I can remember instances where I receive praise, but I don't feel anything from them. On the contrary, remembering bad things never fails to make me feel worse.
A lot of fantasize about faking my death and/or switching identities, move to a house far away from society and live there for the rest of my life. But recently, I usually don't think about the fake death part. Because I know nobody would actually care. Going day by day is extremely tiring and I can't wait for the day I finally die
>>16476762
Wait, so are they the person or not? Don't leave us hanging
>>16476861
heh uh
>>16476786
Cool! I think I'm a pretty cool guy myself, even if I'm a solid 7/10
>>16476867
>tfw
>>16476871
send pics i can rate for free
